I've been so busy, I haven't been able to update. We had a lovely last holiday celebration with baby still on the inside. We treated it like a big celebration for Katie, Christmas being the last day that she's an only child before turning into a Big Sister. She had a blast - she opened all of her gifts in vigor, all the pieces of ripped wrapping paper being thrown over her shoulder as she dug into the gifts. She loved uncovering them! Her seeing her "best friend" Molly sitting in her chair when she came down made her gasp and run over as fast as she could to give Molly a hug. Once she was finished with her gifts, she opened the baby's and even enjoyed those too. She's been playing up a store ever since!
After all the Christmas excitement started to wear down and the party was over, I started to get super jittery and nervous, and I'm still trying to tame them today. I took PM pills last night to ensure that I'd sleep, and today I'm trying to relax but there's suddenly a million last minute things I need to get done before 3. My stomach is in complete knots. I can't wait to meet our baby, but I'm so nervous about so many things. I'm praying hard for a short labor and for a healthy mommy and baby at the end, and if it wouldn't be too much...a quick delivery. (I know, that last one is a long shot!)
I have a million last minute things to do, but my stomach is hurting so much from the nerves that it's hard to get up and get things done. Every time I look at Katie and think of not getting to cuddle her goodnight tonight, I start to get upset. It's like she knows what's about to happen, because for the last few days if I leave the room for even a minute, she starts asking "Mommy? Mommy? Mommy where are you?" I just know that's going to be in my head while I'm gone from her.
I can't wait to have tonight over with. I just want it to be tomorrow already, where our new family of 4 is all in the same house and happy and ready to start our new adventure with our little baby.
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