38w, 4d

I had a terrible night, a terribly early morning, and I'm terribly grumpy. Yep, this sure feels like the third trimester I remember!

I'm so ready for this baby to come out! My body feels like it needs a break from incubating, and this baby feels like he's more than ready to come out. If only he'd get this started! I tried hinting to him that December 2nd sounds like a very nice birthday to have, and how nice would it be for him to be on December 2nd and Katie to be on July 2nd? So far, he's not playing into my game.

Last night I tried to get him to turn so he stops being anterior. The way I tried, which I figured would be the easiest of the harder methods, is to put your knee up as high as it can go while laying in bed. The other leg stays straight. This opens up the pelvis and gives baby more room, and laying that way helps him to want to flip the normal way. Instead, I woke up extremely sore. My hips are killing me. Baby is in the same position as always. He won't move! My legs have bad cramps going through them, my pelvis and tailbone are sore, my hips ache, and I'm having contractions that wrap all the way around my back and feel like it's tearing the muscles back there. I can't wait for my chiropractor appointment on Wednesday!

Katie ended up falling asleep at 8 PM last night. I was still wide awake, so Bill and I stayed up watching movies while he massaged my back until 1 AM. Then Katie decided to keep waking up all night, and finally she was up for good around 6:30-7 AM. WAY too early. Even after I got up and took her downstairs, put on her tv shows, changed her diaper and got her juice, she wouldn't let me sleep. I was near tears exhausted. I had gotten up about three times to pee at night, my entire body hurt from the position I had been in, and I was contracting.

I really want this baby to be here now, and each day that goes by I get more exhausted, more in pain, and more broken down feeling. I'm so overly ready for this baby to come!

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I wrote this earlier today. The day didn't get much better. I even watched about two hours worth of waterbirths to try and deter me. I did gather a bit of energy towards the end of the day after a twenty minute nap, and managed to catch up on dishes. It's the first time I've done dishes in about a month, so it was a good feeling to get them done. I really need to focus the rest of the night on crocheting so I can finish these last two orders. Getting paid for my last big order today has helped inspire me. (phew, I'm back to the amount of money stored that I wanted to at least have for when the baby comes - another reason why baby can come anytime!)