39w,5d

Feeling really grumpy again today (I know, it's almost like there's a pattern here, isn't there?) I started off hating that it was snowing, especially when everyone was calling for 7 inches of snow. Then Bill said he'd stay home, so I felt better. Of course at noon it toned down to flurries and he had to leave because calling off work for weather on a very important day at work wasn't going to fly so well. We were going to try multiple natural induction methods today to see what would happen. With Katie, I already had multiple bloody shows, was labeled in early labor and my water was ready to break. With Will, I'm just constantly in pain and I don't sleep at night anymore but nothing will kick off active labor. I'm feeling miserable, I feel like I'm stuck at the step before active labor and can't move just a little further to get it going. I just feel frustrated. And now my image for my perfect snowy day of having Bill home while we watch movies and drink hot chocolate and eat yummy snacks in between trying to start labor is gone.

I'm just miserable that things are stalling so much. I know, I'm not actually due, but I was really hoping with three weeks of seriously bad contractions, SPD and cervical pain, that maybe it wouldn't linger for so long. Tomorrow is the last day I can have the baby without it taking all of Bill's days next year away, so it would have been lovely had something happened by now. Seeing that about 80% of my baby group has so far gone early, I didn't think it would be too much to ask for just a few days early. After all, Katie started labor an hour into her due date, and she was my first. You'd think my second to start finding his way out by now.

I'm having lovely back contractions today. I've had Bill massaging my back for a few nights now to try and get them to calm down and release some tension in my muscles, but they keep getting more consistent. I can no longer tell where baby is, but I have a feeling that he flipped back to being posterior over the weekend so that's probably causing some of the pain.

My only plan for today is to get my last crochet order as close to finished as possible, get on my feet and do some cleaning and keep moving, bounce on the ball and try to start something here myself. Baby is so active all of a sudden that I can't lay down or nap anyway, so might as well start working towards this.