39w, 1d

I've only been awake for an hour or so, and I'm already feeling super emotional! It's really hitting me that these are Katie's last days as our one and only center of attention. While I've been trying to spend lots of time doing special things with her in these last days to make it even more special, it's still making me weepy that these are the last days. I'm so eager for my life to change and for me to become a mother of a little boy that I forget that Katie's life is forever changing as well and she's going to feel that immediately too. In fact, I think she already is feeling it. She seems to be regressing already in the last few days, perhaps she can sense the change. She suddenly wants to nurse again and is getting possessive of me. Her favorite song to sing all day is "mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy" while she twirls in circles (she used to sing daddy songs, but not anymore.) She was also sleeping well in her own bed and when she'd come into our bed she'd go to her daddy, and now she only wants to sleep with me. It's definitely going to be interesting, trying to learn who this new little baby is while also balancing giving Katie loads of attention and trying to get her used to big sisterhood.

I went for a walk to the store yesterday, as I really, really wanted cake. I figured at least one of three things would happen: I'd go into labor from all the walking, I'd die getting there and/or get stuck along the way, or I'd just get my cake. Turns out, NONE happened!I made it there and back, with the baby bearing down the entire time to make it very difficult to walk, and when I got home my legs hurt too much for the rest of the day to try to make the cake. Today, my legs are still aching and so are my hips. I did have really nasty pains last night, mostly in my cervix that immediately brought tears to my eyes, so who knows - maybe it did something. Fridays are my big tv watching day (since every show decides it has to be on Thursday night!) so I'm hoping I can make the cake early and pair it with some of my shows. Plus it's the weekend tomorrow, so I have a chance of not eating the entire thing by myself this time!