Getting SO anxious to know when this baby is coming! I've been in severe pain today, and I could actually feel the baby moving down into my pelvis. My cervix has been giving me a lot of pain. After trying out inserting EPO pills yesterday, I feel like I'm most likely effacing (though not terribly far, but definitely feels not like normal). I have lots of contractions and pelvic pain, and while I know it's not labor pains, I'm hoping it's a good build up and indication that labor isn't far off. I'd love for it to happen sometime this week!
Sunday, December 8, 2013
Friday, December 6, 2013
39w, 1d
I've only been awake for an hour or so, and I'm already feeling super emotional! It's really hitting me that these are Katie's last days as our one and only center of attention. While I've been trying to spend lots of time doing special things with her in these last days to make it even more special, it's still making me weepy that these are the last days. I'm so eager for my life to change and for me to become a mother of a little boy that I forget that Katie's life is forever changing as well and she's going to feel that immediately too. In fact, I think she already is feeling it. She seems to be regressing already in the last few days, perhaps she can sense the change. She suddenly wants to nurse again and is getting possessive of me. Her favorite song to sing all day is "mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy" while she twirls in circles (she used to sing daddy songs, but not anymore.) She was also sleeping well in her own bed and when she'd come into our bed she'd go to her daddy, and now she only wants to sleep with me. It's definitely going to be interesting, trying to learn who this new little baby is while also balancing giving Katie loads of attention and trying to get her used to big sisterhood.
I went for a walk to the store yesterday, as I really, really wanted cake. I figured at least one of three things would happen: I'd go into labor from all the walking, I'd die getting there and/or get stuck along the way, or I'd just get my cake. Turns out, NONE happened!I made it there and back, with the baby bearing down the entire time to make it very difficult to walk, and when I got home my legs hurt too much for the rest of the day to try to make the cake. Today, my legs are still aching and so are my hips. I did have really nasty pains last night, mostly in my cervix that immediately brought tears to my eyes, so who knows - maybe it did something. Fridays are my big tv watching day (since every show decides it has to be on Thursday night!) so I'm hoping I can make the cake early and pair it with some of my shows. Plus it's the weekend tomorrow, so I have a chance of not eating the entire thing by myself this time!
I went for a walk to the store yesterday, as I really, really wanted cake. I figured at least one of three things would happen: I'd go into labor from all the walking, I'd die getting there and/or get stuck along the way, or I'd just get my cake. Turns out, NONE happened!I made it there and back, with the baby bearing down the entire time to make it very difficult to walk, and when I got home my legs hurt too much for the rest of the day to try to make the cake. Today, my legs are still aching and so are my hips. I did have really nasty pains last night, mostly in my cervix that immediately brought tears to my eyes, so who knows - maybe it did something. Fridays are my big tv watching day (since every show decides it has to be on Thursday night!) so I'm hoping I can make the cake early and pair it with some of my shows. Plus it's the weekend tomorrow, so I have a chance of not eating the entire thing by myself this time!
Thursday, December 5, 2013
39 Weeks
39 weeks today! This is it, the last week of my countdown!
Having gone to the chiropractor yesterday has resulted in me having lots of energy. Yesterday Bill came home to me vacuuming under the rugs and the Christmas tree. Usually he comes home to me groaning on the sofa that my pelvis is broken and I'm pretty grumpy and tired, instead of being active and energetic.
It lasted today too, where I had a craving for cake but no ingredients, so I walked all the way to the store in misty rain to get some. No naps today either! I did lots of walking once I got home too. Now my pelvis is just killing me! I didn't get to make my cake yet either.
I slept SO well last night. After a week of barely sleeping, I went to bed around 1AM and slept in until noon. It was wonderful! Baby still feels different when he moves, so I'm thinking that he's still anterior and I'm hoping he doesn't flip back.
I've been reading through Katie's blog to see how I was at this time with her. It was actually encouraging to see that things started just a few days away from where I am now. By the time I was 39 weeks and 3 days, I had two bloody shows and lots of contractions and the midwife had labeled me in early labor. It was only four days after that when my water broke. My labor kept trying to start and then would stall, but perhaps this time it'll know what it's doing better. I wouldn't mind seeing some hopeful signs when I'm 39w, 3days - which is this weekend!
My ticker above is right - I'm hoping this baby is not a latecomer - or if he is, he's only a few days late. But we'll see!
I'm too hurting and exhausted to climb the stairs to take a belly picture, so that'll be happening tomorrow.
Having gone to the chiropractor yesterday has resulted in me having lots of energy. Yesterday Bill came home to me vacuuming under the rugs and the Christmas tree. Usually he comes home to me groaning on the sofa that my pelvis is broken and I'm pretty grumpy and tired, instead of being active and energetic.
It lasted today too, where I had a craving for cake but no ingredients, so I walked all the way to the store in misty rain to get some. No naps today either! I did lots of walking once I got home too. Now my pelvis is just killing me! I didn't get to make my cake yet either.
I slept SO well last night. After a week of barely sleeping, I went to bed around 1AM and slept in until noon. It was wonderful! Baby still feels different when he moves, so I'm thinking that he's still anterior and I'm hoping he doesn't flip back.
I've been reading through Katie's blog to see how I was at this time with her. It was actually encouraging to see that things started just a few days away from where I am now. By the time I was 39 weeks and 3 days, I had two bloody shows and lots of contractions and the midwife had labeled me in early labor. It was only four days after that when my water broke. My labor kept trying to start and then would stall, but perhaps this time it'll know what it's doing better. I wouldn't mind seeing some hopeful signs when I'm 39w, 3days - which is this weekend!
My ticker above is right - I'm hoping this baby is not a latecomer - or if he is, he's only a few days late. But we'll see!
I'm too hurting and exhausted to climb the stairs to take a belly picture, so that'll be happening tomorrow.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
38w,6d
Went to the chiropractor today! Wow, such a difference! While I can't confirm anything yet, it seems like it may have actually worked on the baby and made him turn! I felt his butt coming out by my belly button today, and all of his movements have been different. My back and pelvis feel SO different! While it could be coincidence, I'm hoping it stays this way!
I'm not sure if nesting just got knocked into me, or if I have a wave of energy from the chiropractor (which happens most times I go.) I've been cleaning up the downstairs all day, crocheting through my last orders I've been slacking on, and even rolled up our big rug and vacuumed underneath it. It made the day go really quickly, and I still have more energy having done everything than I usually do having done nothing.
My eye will not stop twitching though! It's driving me nuts. I have no idea why it's doing it, but it's definitely refusing to stop.
Back to the chiropractor, he was quite worried about working with me today! The face he made when I said I was 8 days away from my due date was just one of terror! When he finished carefully and cautiously cracking me, he admitted that he was afraid I was going to burst my water right there. His fear though was my hope! I wouldn't have minded going into labor right there, as it's roughly five minutes away from the birth center - I could have gone and got checked for my water broken, received information, and went home to labor for a while. Instead, I spent the day cleaning and doing what I should have been doing all of last week.
I'm currently 24 minutes away from turning 39 weeks! I can't believe I'm here, but at the same time I can't believe I'm not overdue already because it so feels like it!
I'm not sure if nesting just got knocked into me, or if I have a wave of energy from the chiropractor (which happens most times I go.) I've been cleaning up the downstairs all day, crocheting through my last orders I've been slacking on, and even rolled up our big rug and vacuumed underneath it. It made the day go really quickly, and I still have more energy having done everything than I usually do having done nothing.
My eye will not stop twitching though! It's driving me nuts. I have no idea why it's doing it, but it's definitely refusing to stop.
Back to the chiropractor, he was quite worried about working with me today! The face he made when I said I was 8 days away from my due date was just one of terror! When he finished carefully and cautiously cracking me, he admitted that he was afraid I was going to burst my water right there. His fear though was my hope! I wouldn't have minded going into labor right there, as it's roughly five minutes away from the birth center - I could have gone and got checked for my water broken, received information, and went home to labor for a while. Instead, I spent the day cleaning and doing what I should have been doing all of last week.
I'm currently 24 minutes away from turning 39 weeks! I can't believe I'm here, but at the same time I can't believe I'm not overdue already because it so feels like it!
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
38w, 5d
I'm not sure how, but I'm suddenly packing on weight faster than I'd like! I'm not eating very much, probably the least I've eaten since I had morning sickness, now that my stomach is being pushed on and squished all the time. However, I gained four pounds last week from the week before, and four more pounds this week. Eek! By next week, I'll be at my same weight as with Katie (but with Katie, I started out weighing a bit more, so I already gained more than what I did with her.) Hopefully this baby comes soon!
Besides that, all of my appointments (except the ultrasound - the only one I wanted!) has been scheduled. My induction date is indeed December 26th - which I'm praying I won't need. That would really make what is supposed to be my best Christmas ever into the most miserable, grumpy Christmas. I can't imagine even celebrating Christmas without my baby here - so many of the gifts under the tree are his. Of course Katie is going to open them either way, but it just won't be as exciting if he's not here. I NEED to get this baby out before Christmas!
My multiple nonstress tests and fluid tests are the week after I'm due, starting on the 19th. I'd love to miss those as well, as I am not fond of going all the way down there for twenty minutes of sitting in a chair while the baby doesn't cooperate and Katie runs around like mad.
My blood pressure was lower today, more like normal. I was 110/70, so the top number went down even if the bottom didn't.
The midwife confirmed, not that she needed to, that baby is still posterior. I actually got him to turn earlier today when he stuck his butt out. It felt SO good, like a huge relief went over in my back muscles in waves. I gave Katie a bath and then boom, I feel him start to spin posterior again. Right now he feels like his butt is around my right side, so he's not completely posterior yet. His head is definitely down and low, but she didn't say how low or if it felt engaged yet. With him moving around so much, I'm thinking he's not engaged yet and if he is, he moves around so much that he might not be for long.
The midwife did kill my motivation a bit though. Listening to her describe second labor (as in second child, which is very different than first child - which I already know!) was disheartening and rough. She kept saying about how I can get really horrible, painful contractions that are strong and can keep me up all night - they can get to be five minutes apart consistently, and they'll still not be real labor. She said even if they get stronger, it doesn't mean real labor. She went over a few times how it can be really painful long before labor is really active. Well now, thank you for sharing that! I already feel like I've been in a state of early labor for a week, but I know it's not actual labor. To know that it can get MUCH worse than this and still not mean anything is so much fun! No wonder my other midwife said that she thinks I'll barely make it to the birth center - they're basically telling me to stay home and not think it's labor even if contractions are consistent, 4-5 minutes apart, lasting longer than an hour and increase in strength (which is normally all the major signs that it's real labor!) I'm hoping for a water birth here - meaning I want to labor and give birth in the water, not get there with a few minutes to go and just jump in the pool - that's just a wet birth! That's not going to help prevent tearing, help with my tailbone breaking, or help calm me at that point. I want to stay home as long as I can to labor, and I don't want to go in for false labor, but I also don't want to give birth at home or in the car!
So, that was my appointment this week. It would be awesome if it was the last one, but I have a feeling I'll be making it to my next one. Hopefully not beyond that though!
Besides that, all of my appointments (except the ultrasound - the only one I wanted!) has been scheduled. My induction date is indeed December 26th - which I'm praying I won't need. That would really make what is supposed to be my best Christmas ever into the most miserable, grumpy Christmas. I can't imagine even celebrating Christmas without my baby here - so many of the gifts under the tree are his. Of course Katie is going to open them either way, but it just won't be as exciting if he's not here. I NEED to get this baby out before Christmas!
My multiple nonstress tests and fluid tests are the week after I'm due, starting on the 19th. I'd love to miss those as well, as I am not fond of going all the way down there for twenty minutes of sitting in a chair while the baby doesn't cooperate and Katie runs around like mad.
My blood pressure was lower today, more like normal. I was 110/70, so the top number went down even if the bottom didn't.
The midwife confirmed, not that she needed to, that baby is still posterior. I actually got him to turn earlier today when he stuck his butt out. It felt SO good, like a huge relief went over in my back muscles in waves. I gave Katie a bath and then boom, I feel him start to spin posterior again. Right now he feels like his butt is around my right side, so he's not completely posterior yet. His head is definitely down and low, but she didn't say how low or if it felt engaged yet. With him moving around so much, I'm thinking he's not engaged yet and if he is, he moves around so much that he might not be for long.
The midwife did kill my motivation a bit though. Listening to her describe second labor (as in second child, which is very different than first child - which I already know!) was disheartening and rough. She kept saying about how I can get really horrible, painful contractions that are strong and can keep me up all night - they can get to be five minutes apart consistently, and they'll still not be real labor. She said even if they get stronger, it doesn't mean real labor. She went over a few times how it can be really painful long before labor is really active. Well now, thank you for sharing that! I already feel like I've been in a state of early labor for a week, but I know it's not actual labor. To know that it can get MUCH worse than this and still not mean anything is so much fun! No wonder my other midwife said that she thinks I'll barely make it to the birth center - they're basically telling me to stay home and not think it's labor even if contractions are consistent, 4-5 minutes apart, lasting longer than an hour and increase in strength (which is normally all the major signs that it's real labor!) I'm hoping for a water birth here - meaning I want to labor and give birth in the water, not get there with a few minutes to go and just jump in the pool - that's just a wet birth! That's not going to help prevent tearing, help with my tailbone breaking, or help calm me at that point. I want to stay home as long as I can to labor, and I don't want to go in for false labor, but I also don't want to give birth at home or in the car!
So, that was my appointment this week. It would be awesome if it was the last one, but I have a feeling I'll be making it to my next one. Hopefully not beyond that though!
Monday, December 2, 2013
38w, 4d
I had a terrible night, a terribly early morning, and I'm terribly grumpy. Yep, this sure feels like the third trimester I remember!
I'm so ready for this baby to come out! My body feels like it needs a break from incubating, and this baby feels like he's more than ready to come out. If only he'd get this started! I tried hinting to him that December 2nd sounds like a very nice birthday to have, and how nice would it be for him to be on December 2nd and Katie to be on July 2nd? So far, he's not playing into my game.
Last night I tried to get him to turn so he stops being anterior. The way I tried, which I figured would be the easiest of the harder methods, is to put your knee up as high as it can go while laying in bed. The other leg stays straight. This opens up the pelvis and gives baby more room, and laying that way helps him to want to flip the normal way. Instead, I woke up extremely sore. My hips are killing me. Baby is in the same position as always. He won't move! My legs have bad cramps going through them, my pelvis and tailbone are sore, my hips ache, and I'm having contractions that wrap all the way around my back and feel like it's tearing the muscles back there. I can't wait for my chiropractor appointment on Wednesday!
Katie ended up falling asleep at 8 PM last night. I was still wide awake, so Bill and I stayed up watching movies while he massaged my back until 1 AM. Then Katie decided to keep waking up all night, and finally she was up for good around 6:30-7 AM. WAY too early. Even after I got up and took her downstairs, put on her tv shows, changed her diaper and got her juice, she wouldn't let me sleep. I was near tears exhausted. I had gotten up about three times to pee at night, my entire body hurt from the position I had been in, and I was contracting.
I really want this baby to be here now, and each day that goes by I get more exhausted, more in pain, and more broken down feeling. I'm so overly ready for this baby to come!
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I wrote this earlier today. The day didn't get much better. I even watched about two hours worth of waterbirths to try and deter me. I did gather a bit of energy towards the end of the day after a twenty minute nap, and managed to catch up on dishes. It's the first time I've done dishes in about a month, so it was a good feeling to get them done. I really need to focus the rest of the night on crocheting so I can finish these last two orders. Getting paid for my last big order today has helped inspire me. (phew, I'm back to the amount of money stored that I wanted to at least have for when the baby comes - another reason why baby can come anytime!)
I'm so ready for this baby to come out! My body feels like it needs a break from incubating, and this baby feels like he's more than ready to come out. If only he'd get this started! I tried hinting to him that December 2nd sounds like a very nice birthday to have, and how nice would it be for him to be on December 2nd and Katie to be on July 2nd? So far, he's not playing into my game.
Last night I tried to get him to turn so he stops being anterior. The way I tried, which I figured would be the easiest of the harder methods, is to put your knee up as high as it can go while laying in bed. The other leg stays straight. This opens up the pelvis and gives baby more room, and laying that way helps him to want to flip the normal way. Instead, I woke up extremely sore. My hips are killing me. Baby is in the same position as always. He won't move! My legs have bad cramps going through them, my pelvis and tailbone are sore, my hips ache, and I'm having contractions that wrap all the way around my back and feel like it's tearing the muscles back there. I can't wait for my chiropractor appointment on Wednesday!
Katie ended up falling asleep at 8 PM last night. I was still wide awake, so Bill and I stayed up watching movies while he massaged my back until 1 AM. Then Katie decided to keep waking up all night, and finally she was up for good around 6:30-7 AM. WAY too early. Even after I got up and took her downstairs, put on her tv shows, changed her diaper and got her juice, she wouldn't let me sleep. I was near tears exhausted. I had gotten up about three times to pee at night, my entire body hurt from the position I had been in, and I was contracting.
I really want this baby to be here now, and each day that goes by I get more exhausted, more in pain, and more broken down feeling. I'm so overly ready for this baby to come!
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I wrote this earlier today. The day didn't get much better. I even watched about two hours worth of waterbirths to try and deter me. I did gather a bit of energy towards the end of the day after a twenty minute nap, and managed to catch up on dishes. It's the first time I've done dishes in about a month, so it was a good feeling to get them done. I really need to focus the rest of the night on crocheting so I can finish these last two orders. Getting paid for my last big order today has helped inspire me. (phew, I'm back to the amount of money stored that I wanted to at least have for when the baby comes - another reason why baby can come anytime!)
Sunday, December 1, 2013
38w, 3d
Yesterday was 12 days until 12.12. But today has flown by and now it's almost 10 days, and I am SO ready for this. I've reached the point where I know it's only going to get harder the longer I wait. I feel like I've been in early labor for two weeks now. I have constant contractions, it's really painful to walk, I have shooting pains in my cervix every few hours of every day, I'm not sleeping at all anymore, I'm feeling grumpy and...I just really want my baby!
I think Thanksgiving sort of kicked off these feelings. Even though pregnancy has gone so fast, it still feels like I've been pregnant since last year when we announced the pregnancy at Thanksgiving. Since this pregnancy and Elizabeth's were so close together, it just feels like they were one. I feel like I've been pregnant for over a year now. I'm cooked, I'm done, I'm ready.
Today I had shooting pains and contractions and I wondered 'could this possibly be the very beginning?' No fear came with it, I even encouraged it. Of course it calmed down and it was just another tease in a long line of them, but I'm so ready. Nothing is holding me back at this point. No, I'm not looking forward to labor but since it has to happen this month no matter what, I'd rather it happen and be done so I can have my little baby than to keep waiting. I'm trying to be patient, it's just not working very well. Patience is for those who have only been pregnant for nine months. Patience is for those who don't watch two and three December babies being born every single day, watching the mommies go through labor and rejoice in their babies afterwards. Patience is for those who aren't cursed with SPD and feel like every single step made is actually bone breaking. I'm so ready.
I'm trying to find things to occupy my time and enjoy these last days. Their Katie's last days of being our only child, and I've been doing lots of fun things with her while I have the time. We've made cookies, we've gone shopping, we ate out our last meal in a sit down restaurant, we decorated a tree together while dancing and singing to Christmas music and eating chocolate. We have loads of cuddle time, lots of hugs and girl nights. I'm making the most of the time we still have....but I'm so ready!
It's also difficult because I no longer want to leave the house. I don't want to get out of my fluffy pajama bottoms. I don't want Bill to ever leave or go to work. I feel like I'm nesting in my own way - by surrounding myself in my "nest" of blankets and pillows in my own home and waiting for my little hatchling.
I'm not doing any home induction methods due to last time, but I am begging baby on an hourly basis to come on out now.
I think Thanksgiving sort of kicked off these feelings. Even though pregnancy has gone so fast, it still feels like I've been pregnant since last year when we announced the pregnancy at Thanksgiving. Since this pregnancy and Elizabeth's were so close together, it just feels like they were one. I feel like I've been pregnant for over a year now. I'm cooked, I'm done, I'm ready.
Today I had shooting pains and contractions and I wondered 'could this possibly be the very beginning?' No fear came with it, I even encouraged it. Of course it calmed down and it was just another tease in a long line of them, but I'm so ready. Nothing is holding me back at this point. No, I'm not looking forward to labor but since it has to happen this month no matter what, I'd rather it happen and be done so I can have my little baby than to keep waiting. I'm trying to be patient, it's just not working very well. Patience is for those who have only been pregnant for nine months. Patience is for those who don't watch two and three December babies being born every single day, watching the mommies go through labor and rejoice in their babies afterwards. Patience is for those who aren't cursed with SPD and feel like every single step made is actually bone breaking. I'm so ready.
I'm trying to find things to occupy my time and enjoy these last days. Their Katie's last days of being our only child, and I've been doing lots of fun things with her while I have the time. We've made cookies, we've gone shopping, we ate out our last meal in a sit down restaurant, we decorated a tree together while dancing and singing to Christmas music and eating chocolate. We have loads of cuddle time, lots of hugs and girl nights. I'm making the most of the time we still have....but I'm so ready!
It's also difficult because I no longer want to leave the house. I don't want to get out of my fluffy pajama bottoms. I don't want Bill to ever leave or go to work. I feel like I'm nesting in my own way - by surrounding myself in my "nest" of blankets and pillows in my own home and waiting for my little hatchling.
I'm not doing any home induction methods due to last time, but I am begging baby on an hourly basis to come on out now.
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