Five Weeks

Here's the very first picture of this pregnancy. The date is a bit off, I took it yesterday at 4w, 6d...which means today I'm 5 weeks! This was such a great week. Of course since we just found out we've been beaming and enjoying telling everyone. No secrets here! We both instantly agreed that this baby, just like Elizabeth, should be celebrated no matter how long they're here for. Since we never know how long they're here for, we wanted to start celebrating with everyone right away. I know for most people, especially those who have lost in their past, it's unusual, but this is just what we both felt was right. We're already growing to love this little new life and want to give everyone the opportunity to love them too!

But it's also been a very fast week, especially since we found out two days into it, so it felt short. I would love each week to fly by as fast as this one did. Luckily, this is a great time to be pregnant! This month I'm keeping busy with yard sales each weekend and spring cleaning/decluttering through the week as well as taking walks to the park, library, and grocery store. Next month, the pool opens, where I'll be there about every day with Katie, basking in the sun and teaching her again how to swim. It'll be a busy summer, so hopefully it'll just fly by! I can't wait for this little baby to come. 

This year has been a very big year in spiritual growth. Not that it changed my viewpoints, but that I spend so much of every day praying. After Elizabeth passed, I was constantly praying. Every time I felt upset, every time I cried, every time I lit her candle and blew it back out, every time we visited her at her spot, every time we went to church, every time I went to bed...I prayed for her. Every time I had a free moment, I spent it praying for her and for us.

And now this rainbow has been given to us, and I pray constantly. Every time I go to the bathroom, I pray to not see anything bad. I think I'll forever be a bit traumatized by my bathroom, afraid to see blood when I shouldn't. But every time I don't see blood, I thank God out loud and full heartedly. I pray for the health of this baby constantly. I pray for Elizabeth. I pray all the time. God already showed us that he heard our prayers by healing our hearts, allowing us to open up to another try, and then giving us that new baby to welcome into our family.

So far, my symptoms are being exhausted and starving. I'm always one or the other...or both!...at every moment. I gained a few pounds just in the last week, which puts me right at my ideal perfect weight. Can't wait to wave it goodbye though as I progress in pregnancy!