6w,1d

I'm feeling better today, at least mentally. Physically, I've been dry heaving, which is part of why I feel better mentally.

I'm trying to not drive myself crazy over the next two weeks. I'm choosing to believe that the ultrasound was just too early and it was useless and only served to prove that I am pregnant. I'm going to assume that this baby is okay, that what our "might be baby" sighting was a baby, and that baby is growing and going to start a heartbeat soon.

I was so sick yesterday. Before we went to the doctors, I nearly had to pull over multiple times. I was so badly car sick! Then when we were home, the kitchen turned into a nightmare. Every time I walked into it to try and get any food or let dogs out, I would get really sick and begin to dry heave. I tried eating bananas and quick snacks to calm my belly and they made it worse. When I went to bed, I got sick again. Nighttime is always when morning sickness kicks up. Now that I'm 6 weeks, I'm on schedule with getting sick, it's the most common time it kicks in.

My stuffy nose isn't getting any better, either. I generally wake up with a nose bleed, which is something I dealt with almost every day in Katie's pregnancy. Through that super stuffy nose, however, I can still smell things like crazy. I'm going nuts with the bad smells around me, when Bill can't smell them at all.

I have plenty of symptoms right now. I have a healthy, on schedule yolk sac. For only being 6 weeks, that's pretty good, I think. Had I not lost my last pregnancy, I don't think I'd be very worried over the last scan. I'd understand that it's normal, and knew going in there that we might not see anything at all. At least we saw the sac and what might be the baby. But it's hard to erase the memories of last time, and it's hard not to apply those fears. For the most part, I feel like I do pretty well. I talk to the baby, I pray for the baby, and I continue to believe that the baby is going to be healthy and will pull through to be our Christmas miracle. It's just hard to remain positive at all times.