I woke up in a terrible mood. Everything made me cranky! True, this is the third day that I had almost no sleep due to Katie teething terribly and being up every hour, but usually I don't get really grumpy for lack of sleep. Today, I was on a silent warpath for everything, even things that had NOTHING to do with me! I was getting angry for other people! LOL. It shocked me, I'm not usually like this at all!
Once Bill left, I got so emotional. My anger melted into tears and I kept crying. I thought about the next ultrasound and I cried. I thought about Elizabeth and cried. I just kept crying. Now I'm feeling drained and exhausted.
This pregnancy is such a dream come true that it feels almost like it hasn't come true yet. I have been waiting for another baby for so long. I had a year to dream of another baby while trying for Elizabeth. Then I had three months to dream up having her. When she was gone, I longed for a baby. It's been a long journey since we started trying to get another baby in the house, and I guess that's why it's hard to realize that it's actually happening right now. I guess it started to seem like I'd be waiting and hoping forever, that it's hard to stop hoping and to start actually having it happen.
I've been terribly craving cheese steak so badly all day (to the point of me being terribly upset that I wasn't devouring it) but now my dad just dropped one off for me. I have to go and eat it, as Katie is currently eating it like crazy! She likes everything mommy likes!
But first, here's this week's picture: (to clarify, this is EARLY DAY belly - it's not crazy night time bloat. This is the smallest my belly gets now! Oh my goodness...
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