Day 24

I'm half way through the first day of Bill being back to work, and so far I haven't broken down or cried or felt too terribly stressed. I also haven't done any housework though. I've been taking care of Will and Katie, been making meals and letting dogs out and that's about it. But at least I know I can handle this part, which last week I didn't think I could. Will won't let me put him down for more than two minutes so figuring out meals and doing things needed have been an adjustment (he's also fighting going in a carrier today, I have no idea why though, except to just make things harder on me!). I must say, since we cancelled our phones I haven't minded it until today. Today it sucks. I keep wanting to talk to Bill and instead, I can't talk to him until he comes home tonight. It's lonely. I have so much I want to tell him! I'm not used to him being parted from me.

I think I found the source of my bleeding. I don't think it's all lochia, but instead a cut that's on the outside. It's been sore ever since I came home from the hospital, but now it seems like I keep accidently pulling it open. As soon as it feels that way, I notice little bits of fresh blood. I'm wondering if I tore a bit and they didn't notice and now it's still trying to heal. I'm hoping it doesn't give me problems down the road like I had last time. I don't have my "6 week" appointment until March, so it won't be checked out for a long time and I'd really hope it's all healed by then!

So far, my pelvis isn't falling apart and my bleeding isn't picking up too much today. Hopefully it stays this way even though I have to be more active now.

I think I'm going to immerse myself in a tv show this week so I don't feel as lonely and the house isn't quite as quiet as it is now. I'll start housework next week once I both figured out how to take care of the kids, dogs, meals and being lonely. This week has enough on it's plate!