Day 12

Day 12! Can it really only have been 12 days since I delivered this baby?! Only 12 days since I've met him face to face, carried him in my arms all day, taken care of him? It seems like so much longer. And yet the days seem to go by so very fast.

Last night Will and Katie tagged teamed me with a sleepless night. When one would finally go to sleep, the other would wake up. When that one finally fell asleep, the other woke up. Oh, and the poop! Will pooped at least four times last night and then Katie pooped in her sleep...it was dreadful. I slept between them, Katie in her crib and Will on the bed and I'd flip over to take care of one then flip again to take care of the next one. All. Night. Long. I'm guessing I got maybe 3 hours of sleep, but that's being very generous. Guess what both children are doing right now? Yep, they're fast asleep at 3:30 PM and have been sleeping for quite a while. Guess who can't sleep? Right again - it's me!

I can't wait for Will's circumcision to heal. So far it looks fine and I haven't had any problems, but I'm constantly stressed about it. Did I put enough of a giant glob of vaseline on it? Am I going to have enough to last me until someone can get it in? (Apparently this very common vaseline, which I'm supposed to only use this exact kind, is not in any of the three pharmacies we've been to. We're having one order it today, but they didn't say when it would be in and I have to make this tube last as long as possible while still giving him generous globs to make sure it won't stick.) The gel foam, which was supposed to last quite a few days, already fell off. Half of it was gone by early last night, and when he woke up this morning it was completely gone. It was so disappointing, as it's what made me feel better. I didn't have to worry about hurting him if he did get stuck on a diaper, because it would just be the foam stuck, not him. But now there's nothing between him and the diaper except what vaseline I put on. This may be why most of the tube is already gone. I can't wait to not have this stress! At the very least, his poop is calming down a tiny bit - instead of every half hour, it's every hour to hour and a half - still a lot but not quite as bad. His rash from the constant poop is gone and I don't need to use desitin anymore - which is great, since he can't have any while the circumcision is healing (nothing with zinc in it.)

On the plus side, I decided to try another 0-3 outfit on him today since he's suddenly sprouted up to 9 lbs and seemed to have grown in length as well. Finally, it fits him! This is really exciting as I have lots of 0-3 outfits and very few newborn outfits.

This morning I woke up to try to see if I could take care of the kids myself. I took the baby downstairs, went up and grabbed Katie to take her downstairs, got her juice and cereal with one hand, put on her shows and changed her diaper, changed the baby's diaper and got to nursing him after letting the dogs in and out. It wasn't too hard, except for now I'm back to bleeding again and my belly hurts. Just like two days ago when I had to walk to baby to sleep. I walked him for an hour and started to bleed again. Bill only has four days until he goes back to work and my body is still trying to tell me to sit down and not move. I'm tempted to get him to stay home for another week if this keeps up, but I'm still debating if that's what's best. It would take the last of our saved up money to keep him home. While it wouldn't break us, it would leave us without any fall back money, which I don't like. I'm not sure what to do yet.