I'm starting to feel human again! After a week of hell, of feeling like I was in some delirious world that didn't quite make sense, I'm starting to be me again. It's wonderful! This sickness stuck to me for so long, it didn't want to let go. Every time I'd start to feel better, I'd get dragged back down and feel even worse. But last night I went to bed feeling pretty good. Sure, I still have a stuffy nose, but I have one of those from allergies and pregnancy all the time, so that's not bad. This morning I felt pretty good too, enough to finally get Katie her overdue bath first thing in the morning (and that's quite a thing to tackle right when you wake up!). I'm still feeling okay this afternoon, enough so that I'm finally unleashing all my pent up need to clean on this house. I did laundry, I cleaned up the front rooms, put things away in the kitchen, made lunch and fed Katie four times as she never, ever fills up. Already what I've done in three hours is more than I've done in all five days of sickness.
And to top it off, Bill was actually able to go to work today! I think he probably looked forward to it, as much as I looked forward to making my own meals again. In the three and a half years we've been married, his cooking skills have gone from really good to...well, he can make the most amazing steak with mushrooms and onions you've ever tasted. And his BBQ grilled chicken is amazing. But normal, every day food? Eek. We've been eating over boiled, slightly burned meals for days. While all I made today was Tuna Helper, I was glad to be able to do it myself!
However, last night didn't go too smoothly. While Katie once again peacefully fell asleep in her little bed, she woke up around dawn crying and sounding snotty. I grabbed her out of bed and cuddled her while I kept her against my mountain of pillows to help her drain while sleeping. I was sure that my little girl was sick with how snotty she sounded and with a little cough, but there's no trace of it today. She did the same two nights ago, where she sounded sick and woke up happy. She doesn't sound snotty today, she's not coughing, there's no signs. It's like she only gets a bit sick when it's nighttime!
I didn't mind cuddling her though. I've been having bad dreams this whole week, probably because of the weird way I lay/sit to sleep. Last night I dreamt that I had Will, but something seemed so off and I couldn't understand it. It took me forever to realize that he wasn't acting right and he was so tiny, until I understood that he was a tiny little preemie baby. He looked the size of how he is now, he was even tinted quite pink from the lack of fat on him. It was so vivid that it really made me nervous, so cuddling up with Katie was quite welcomed at that point.
Even though I'm feeling better, I'm still exhausted from not sleeping well. I feel like I have so much pent up energy until I try to run around and do things. Then I'm drained within minutes. Hopefully tomorrow will be better! Week 28 is tomorrow, maybe it'll be the end to this sickness curse.
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