This is my LAST day of second trimester!
I don't know if I should throw a party or go hide under my bed. On one hand, we're getting closer to having this little baby. I am having baby fever so bad! I've been looking at Katie's old baby pictures, I see other people on FB with newborn pics, and I see these tiny babies everywhere and I WANT ONE! I can't wait to snuggle with my little boy. I'm so ready to have another baby! It feels like I've been waiting forever, even though this pregnancy has felt so short.
My bladder has certainly heard that it's third trimester time. I go to the bathroom literally every 20 minutes or less. I often will go to the bathroom, walk back down the stairs and before i reach the sofa (which is like five steps away), I need to go again. I'm not saying that happens once in a while - I mean half the time I already have to go again! I drink so much water and there's just no room for it anymore. My bladder is so small that only so much can come out at a time and then the room that leaves is instantly filled and I need to go again. I didn't have to pee this much with Katie, but bladders get weaker with each pregnancy.
I've been doing yoga twice a day for a the last three days. Did I really just say that? It's so unlike me, but it's not a choice anymore. I HAVE to, or it means a day where I can't breathe and I'm hurting really badly. So yoga it is! Of course, that's really difficult to do - not only because my body does not want to be flexible anymore, but because Katie thinks it's the perfect time to cuddle, or have a fit, both which conveniently happen right in my lap when I'm in the middle of a pose. If that wasn't hard enough, my bladder starts to say that it needs to go again and the baby wakes up EVERY time I start doing yoga and kicks me like crazy, which makes it really hard to keep my balance and my breath. But hey, this is the first time in all of my pregnancies that I did any exercising, so I guess it's still good.
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Monday, September 9, 2013
Exercise
Apparently my body is not giving me a choice about exercising this pregnancy. It's either do the damn yoga and stretches or get used to horrible muscle pain and a chest that feels like it's collapsing on the lungs. Pretty much, I can no longer breathe if I try to get up and do anything for more than a few minutes. Of course, this scares me in relation to labor - if I can't stand and do dishes for fifteen minutes without serious aching and a lack of air, how in the world am I getting through labor?
It scared me enough to take action today. I couldn't bare to actually go all the way up to the attic to grab my exercise dvd (because, you know, that would be exercising...) so I put on youtube. Turns out, they have an awesome pregnancy series on there for ten minute prenatal yoga. I turned it on, did it and...well, I barely made it through! I am not as limber as I once was, and doing anything with this giant belly is proving difficult. This is why, of course, they tell you to start these things in FIRST trimester, not on the last days of second. With that said though, it did help. It stretched out my back muscles, opened up my chest a bit, and helped with my hips and pelvis. I'm a bit sore afterwards, but honestly I want to do more. I need something for my neck and shoulders as well, as they're hurting badly.
Now that this "oh my gosh, I actually need to get this baby out of me soon" ordeal is becoming so real, I feel the need to start getting my body prepared. Even though I had a great, uncomplicated (for the most part) birth, I'd love if I could improve on it this time. Last time, I did no exercising at all, not a single day of my pregnancy, and I just went with it. I'm hoping this time, I won't need to push for three hours. I'm mentally preparing with the hypnobirth book so that I can control my pain enough to keep up strength and try to get the baby out sooner (last time I just felt like death once transition hit - which was around the time where my tailbone was breaking too, so while I pushed every time I was told, it was very hard for me to make my body work the way I wanted it to. It just felt broken and I felt like i couldn't get a handle on it.). I want to physically get those muscles working well so that I have more strength as well. I can't control how long my labor will be and how my contractions will go, but I can try to prepare for the pushing part, which is the hardest on me.
Of course, day time yoga is a challenge though. Keeping up the breathing while trying not to get frustrated at the little complaining toddler who decides that your lap is the very best place to sprawl and whine about something every few minutes is a bit rough! Me being on the floor and looking like I'm trying to do something is an instant toddler magnet! Since Katie is no longer taking daily naps so I can get her to bed earlier, which also makes her wake earlier, this means there's no real time for me to do it while she's not active and running around.
Slowly, I'm getting the nursery ready. It's had so much stuff in it since moving the attic downstairs and vise versa that now I'm just slowly picking away at it. There's Katie's toys mixed with baby toys, wrong sized clothing, leftover birthday stuff, etc. But I got all the clothing that isn't washed yet together to do another load soon so I can see what exactly I have, and I put up the Mickey Mouse curtains last night. I also took down Katie's name from the top of the closet (I put it in another part of the nursery) and put up the sign from the party announcing baby's gender and name. I also still have the balloons from the party that I put up, and the original sign from back in April to announce another baby on the way, which has been on the closet door for months. I also reorganized the dresser drawers so I can fit more clothing in - all the sheets and comforters are now under the crib where Katie's are. Three days until third trimester and I'm nearly ready!
It scared me enough to take action today. I couldn't bare to actually go all the way up to the attic to grab my exercise dvd (because, you know, that would be exercising...) so I put on youtube. Turns out, they have an awesome pregnancy series on there for ten minute prenatal yoga. I turned it on, did it and...well, I barely made it through! I am not as limber as I once was, and doing anything with this giant belly is proving difficult. This is why, of course, they tell you to start these things in FIRST trimester, not on the last days of second. With that said though, it did help. It stretched out my back muscles, opened up my chest a bit, and helped with my hips and pelvis. I'm a bit sore afterwards, but honestly I want to do more. I need something for my neck and shoulders as well, as they're hurting badly.
Now that this "oh my gosh, I actually need to get this baby out of me soon" ordeal is becoming so real, I feel the need to start getting my body prepared. Even though I had a great, uncomplicated (for the most part) birth, I'd love if I could improve on it this time. Last time, I did no exercising at all, not a single day of my pregnancy, and I just went with it. I'm hoping this time, I won't need to push for three hours. I'm mentally preparing with the hypnobirth book so that I can control my pain enough to keep up strength and try to get the baby out sooner (last time I just felt like death once transition hit - which was around the time where my tailbone was breaking too, so while I pushed every time I was told, it was very hard for me to make my body work the way I wanted it to. It just felt broken and I felt like i couldn't get a handle on it.). I want to physically get those muscles working well so that I have more strength as well. I can't control how long my labor will be and how my contractions will go, but I can try to prepare for the pushing part, which is the hardest on me.
Of course, day time yoga is a challenge though. Keeping up the breathing while trying not to get frustrated at the little complaining toddler who decides that your lap is the very best place to sprawl and whine about something every few minutes is a bit rough! Me being on the floor and looking like I'm trying to do something is an instant toddler magnet! Since Katie is no longer taking daily naps so I can get her to bed earlier, which also makes her wake earlier, this means there's no real time for me to do it while she's not active and running around.
Slowly, I'm getting the nursery ready. It's had so much stuff in it since moving the attic downstairs and vise versa that now I'm just slowly picking away at it. There's Katie's toys mixed with baby toys, wrong sized clothing, leftover birthday stuff, etc. But I got all the clothing that isn't washed yet together to do another load soon so I can see what exactly I have, and I put up the Mickey Mouse curtains last night. I also took down Katie's name from the top of the closet (I put it in another part of the nursery) and put up the sign from the party announcing baby's gender and name. I also still have the balloons from the party that I put up, and the original sign from back in April to announce another baby on the way, which has been on the closet door for months. I also reorganized the dresser drawers so I can fit more clothing in - all the sheets and comforters are now under the crib where Katie's are. Three days until third trimester and I'm nearly ready!
Friday, September 6, 2013
26w, 1d
Today has been quite productive! Bill stayed home from being sick, which I took advantage of. I finished packing my hospital bag (with the exception of finding what pants I want to take for going home in and finding the birthing gowns that are somewhere around here) and finished packing what I need for the baby as well. I just need the Daddy bag and Katie's bag packed, which are both quick and easy (I'm waiting to do those for when the winter clothing come back out).
I also went to the store and found a great deal on diapers. I never saw a bigger box of diapers, I'm not even sure what they were called because the big Katie box of diapers I get are called Jumbo...and these are twice as many! (edit - I just walked by them and looked - it's called "the HUGE box")
I had two options - I could get the Pampers Swaddler box for $24 and get 88 diapers, or I could get this huge box of Pampers Swaddlers for $30 and get over 180. Obviously, I went for the latter. This is in size one, so that combined with the two bags of newborn diapers should get me through quite a few weeks. This doesn't include all the diapers I had left over that I have sealed in totes. Diaper Stash - completed!
I have now received all of Will's Christmas gifts except one. I have to get him a Scout (Leapfrog) to go with Katie's Violet. The problem is, if Katie sees it she's going to go nuts so I'm waiting on that one until I can go in by myself and grab it. Everything else is all ready to be wrapped up!
I also bought a few more outfits. I know, don't I say that every few days? But I swear, I look in the drawers and the stash just looks lacking. I don't feel confident yet that I have enough. But, I'm also buying for newborn, 0-3, and 3-6, and 6 months, so I'm covering half a year of clothes here. Today I grabbed a few hats for the baby, which seems so foreign to me because Katie never wore hats past the first day. But this baby is a winter baby, he's going to need hats for when he goes places (like the doctor's) and when it's cool in the house. I also got a few more pairs of tiny, fluffy socks. I have about 10 pairs now, which I don't think is enough because they're so small and pretty much immediately get lost after the first week. I had some for Katie, but after a few times through the laundry, they just disppeared. Luckily though, as a summer baby, she never needed them anyway. The only thing left that I need ( I think, I haven't washed everything up yet) is some long sleeve swaddler shirts - which, even though they have winter suits, winter jackets, long sleeve everything and winter sleepers, they STILL don't have any swaddle long sleeve shirts.
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Besides what I accomplished so far today...I also had some moments where I was close to tears. One of my favorite maternity shirts, which I wore up until delivering Katie last time...yep, it's too tight now. SERIOUSLY? I'm 26 weeks and I can't fit into a shirt that I wore until 40 weeks last time? And my normal jeans, which are always giant on me outside of pregnancy, are now too tight. I also had to go up a size in underwear. Everything is expanding so fast now! The scary part about it is I know how my body is in third tri - all of a sudden, I gain a lot of weight and I get huge. So the fact that I'm doing that pre-30 weeks is a bit worrying! I can only imagine how huge I'm going to get by the end this time!
I had horrible nightmares all last night. I thought I was safely past the time where miscarriage dreams might plague me, but I was wrong. They're more vivid now, and they're more personal as they were about this baby. Having gone through the process made it feel so realistic and horrible and it seemed like all night long wanted to focus on just that. Obviously, I got very little sleep.
With all that said, I'm feeling better about going into third trimester next week. At least my bag and baby's bag is packed. I have the major things, like the car seat, already bought. Everything I'll need for baby is bought, I just need to do another load of baby laundry now. Christmas is 75% done, and honestly even if I for some reason wasn't able to finish up the Christmas list, Katie would have lots to unwrap and all the really important gifts are here and waiting to be wrapped next month. It's such a different feeling to be prepared in pregnancy!
I also went to the store and found a great deal on diapers. I never saw a bigger box of diapers, I'm not even sure what they were called because the big Katie box of diapers I get are called Jumbo...and these are twice as many! (edit - I just walked by them and looked - it's called "the HUGE box")
I had two options - I could get the Pampers Swaddler box for $24 and get 88 diapers, or I could get this huge box of Pampers Swaddlers for $30 and get over 180. Obviously, I went for the latter. This is in size one, so that combined with the two bags of newborn diapers should get me through quite a few weeks. This doesn't include all the diapers I had left over that I have sealed in totes. Diaper Stash - completed!
I have now received all of Will's Christmas gifts except one. I have to get him a Scout (Leapfrog) to go with Katie's Violet. The problem is, if Katie sees it she's going to go nuts so I'm waiting on that one until I can go in by myself and grab it. Everything else is all ready to be wrapped up!
I also bought a few more outfits. I know, don't I say that every few days? But I swear, I look in the drawers and the stash just looks lacking. I don't feel confident yet that I have enough. But, I'm also buying for newborn, 0-3, and 3-6, and 6 months, so I'm covering half a year of clothes here. Today I grabbed a few hats for the baby, which seems so foreign to me because Katie never wore hats past the first day. But this baby is a winter baby, he's going to need hats for when he goes places (like the doctor's) and when it's cool in the house. I also got a few more pairs of tiny, fluffy socks. I have about 10 pairs now, which I don't think is enough because they're so small and pretty much immediately get lost after the first week. I had some for Katie, but after a few times through the laundry, they just disppeared. Luckily though, as a summer baby, she never needed them anyway. The only thing left that I need ( I think, I haven't washed everything up yet) is some long sleeve swaddler shirts - which, even though they have winter suits, winter jackets, long sleeve everything and winter sleepers, they STILL don't have any swaddle long sleeve shirts.
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Besides what I accomplished so far today...I also had some moments where I was close to tears. One of my favorite maternity shirts, which I wore up until delivering Katie last time...yep, it's too tight now. SERIOUSLY? I'm 26 weeks and I can't fit into a shirt that I wore until 40 weeks last time? And my normal jeans, which are always giant on me outside of pregnancy, are now too tight. I also had to go up a size in underwear. Everything is expanding so fast now! The scary part about it is I know how my body is in third tri - all of a sudden, I gain a lot of weight and I get huge. So the fact that I'm doing that pre-30 weeks is a bit worrying! I can only imagine how huge I'm going to get by the end this time!
I had horrible nightmares all last night. I thought I was safely past the time where miscarriage dreams might plague me, but I was wrong. They're more vivid now, and they're more personal as they were about this baby. Having gone through the process made it feel so realistic and horrible and it seemed like all night long wanted to focus on just that. Obviously, I got very little sleep.
With all that said, I'm feeling better about going into third trimester next week. At least my bag and baby's bag is packed. I have the major things, like the car seat, already bought. Everything I'll need for baby is bought, I just need to do another load of baby laundry now. Christmas is 75% done, and honestly even if I for some reason wasn't able to finish up the Christmas list, Katie would have lots to unwrap and all the really important gifts are here and waiting to be wrapped next month. It's such a different feeling to be prepared in pregnancy!
Thursday, September 5, 2013
26 Weeks
26 weeks today! AKA, 98 days left as well as this being the LAST week of second trimester! It's getting real now!
Baby's eyes are now open and able to see and his brain is developing a lot this week. He's now about or just over 2 lbs. He's also starting to get squished in there - something that is becoming apparent to me from how he's moving so roughly!
After having a silly panic the other day about baby not moving enough (even though he had moved like crazy all day and then by night was sleepy) I've been really relishing in baby's movements everytime. I think it was just a wake up call to remember to be so grateful for everything, because this pregnancy - even through the constant aches and pains - has gone by so smoothly and baby is wonderfully healthy.
I can't seem to get full today. Watching Masterchef probably isn't helping, but wow, no matter what I eat I'm still hungry right after. I had a plate of chicken stir fry, a granola bar, a large chicken and peppers fajita, and been drowning myself with water all in the last two hours. Still not enough. I'm now thinking of grabbing a bowl of cereal and hoping the hunger passes because I'm running out of food I can warm up! After cooking a huge amount of stir fry yesterday and chicken fajitas, I'm in no mood to do much cooking today, especially since I'm still finishing up cleaning the kitchen.
There's quite a difference in this week's belly picture. Now that baby flipped, my belly looks so much smaller. Well, maybe not smaller, but more up and down instead of straight out. Which is pretty funny, as to me, my belly looks bigger than ever, but in the pictures it looks smaller than the last three weeks or so.
Baby's eyes are now open and able to see and his brain is developing a lot this week. He's now about or just over 2 lbs. He's also starting to get squished in there - something that is becoming apparent to me from how he's moving so roughly!
I can't seem to get full today. Watching Masterchef probably isn't helping, but wow, no matter what I eat I'm still hungry right after. I had a plate of chicken stir fry, a granola bar, a large chicken and peppers fajita, and been drowning myself with water all in the last two hours. Still not enough. I'm now thinking of grabbing a bowl of cereal and hoping the hunger passes because I'm running out of food I can warm up! After cooking a huge amount of stir fry yesterday and chicken fajitas, I'm in no mood to do much cooking today, especially since I'm still finishing up cleaning the kitchen.
There's quite a difference in this week's belly picture. Now that baby flipped, my belly looks so much smaller. Well, maybe not smaller, but more up and down instead of straight out. Which is pretty funny, as to me, my belly looks bigger than ever, but in the pictures it looks smaller than the last three weeks or so.
And to compare some of second trimester:
or the whole thing:
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
25w, 6d
I have a shopping addiction.
This baby, who was supposed to cost us very little because we have pretty much everything but clothing and I was going to yard sales for 50 cent outfits...is ending up costing me A LOT. It's not his fault though, it's zulily's! Or, you know...mine. You know you have a problem when you actually count the days proudly since you last made an order and spent money. I haven't made it over 7 in weeks! Thankfully, my hat business and online jobs are making sure that none of this shopping is actually touching the bank at all. If I didn't have that money, that would definitely cure me of my addiction, because I don't touch bank money.
As for now though, this baby is going to be the most cutest dressed, adorable little baby ever. I started off thinking that boy clothes were pretty boring. And in the stores, I'm right - unless I want EVERYTHING to be monkeys and trucks, I'm out of luck. But then I found some online stores that have everything I want for this baby - Mickey Mouse, Superheros, and even adorably geeky outfits. They have Doctor Who onesies! Seriously, how am I to avoid temptation when they keep coming out with more?
I got my pack of superhero sleepers today:
This baby, who was supposed to cost us very little because we have pretty much everything but clothing and I was going to yard sales for 50 cent outfits...is ending up costing me A LOT. It's not his fault though, it's zulily's! Or, you know...mine. You know you have a problem when you actually count the days proudly since you last made an order and spent money. I haven't made it over 7 in weeks! Thankfully, my hat business and online jobs are making sure that none of this shopping is actually touching the bank at all. If I didn't have that money, that would definitely cure me of my addiction, because I don't touch bank money.
As for now though, this baby is going to be the most cutest dressed, adorable little baby ever. I started off thinking that boy clothes were pretty boring. And in the stores, I'm right - unless I want EVERYTHING to be monkeys and trucks, I'm out of luck. But then I found some online stores that have everything I want for this baby - Mickey Mouse, Superheros, and even adorably geeky outfits. They have Doctor Who onesies! Seriously, how am I to avoid temptation when they keep coming out with more?
I got my pack of superhero sleepers today:
I liked them so much that 15 minutes after opening these, I ordered this (it has a matching hat AND socks!)
I need to buy Katie's Minnie Mouse toddler bedding next, so I HAVE to stay off of zulily for at least a few weeks.
For some reason, I'm starting to panic over everything. Okay, not some reason, but the fact that I'm almost in third tri. But I'm not sure why I'm panicking over the baby too. The baby is moving like normal, but I get scared if I don't feel him at certain times. He hasn't decreased movement, and he's very strong, so I know there's no reason to worry. But at certain times of the day, all of a sudden I feel like he should be kicking me and if he doesn't when I try to get him too, I get concerned. Again, he hasn't decreased movements at all! There's NO reason to worry. But everything is a worry right now. Looking in the baby's drawers and being unsure if I have enough is a big worry. The nursery not being done makes me feel uneasy. The hospital bag still not finished makes me need to run around the house to locate the rest of what I need.
(I actually stopped at that last sentence above, ran upstairs, and located my travel size toiletries, my right after birth nursing top, bikini top, and witch hazel wipes and added them into the hospital bag.)
Tomorrow is 26 weeks already! Insane! I now have less than 100 days to go!
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Just 9 days
I swear, last week I was convinced that I still had a month to go before third tri. And then I woke up and realized that oh my gosh, as of today, I have NINE days left of second tri. Nine - single digits!
No wonder I've been nesting like crazy lately. My body knows what's going on better than I do, and it's panicking faster than my brain can keep up! I'm going to go grab the rest of the stuff I need tonight to finish packing my bag, and then get started on the rest of the family's bags. I'm glad I already got my carseat, and I'm almost done with clothing now. I started on my diaper stash and plan to add to it tonight. Right now baby is putting so much pressure on my body that it's hard to walk, but as soon as that gets a bit better I'm going to attack the nursery. The five sleepers I have coming that should help me finish up what I need will arrive tomorrow.
I also finally just ordered my first Hypnobirthing book. The book had a few hundred more reviews than the cds did and the cds were 4 times as much, so I thought I'd start with the book and see how I liked their ideas before investing, but I need to start it soon as I know the recommendations are to start it in second tri! The book will be here in two days, hoping that I can get a lot out of it, or at least like it enough to get the cds and see how they work. The problem with the cds is last time with Katie, I wanted NO noise in the room. I hated the idea of music or anything, so I'm not sure if the cds will work as much as memorizing the methods.
The pressure "down there" is getting worse and worse. Baby is really hanging low, and he's so active that sometimes it's almost scary! It feels like he's busting out of my skin, and I have no idea how my insides aren't completely bruised because he's that strong. I have no idea how it is that when babies come out, they seem so fragile and tiny, but when they're inside, they seem so strong and invincible! Even with how constantly active Katie was, I don't remember her being this strong this soon. Makes me wonder how big of a baby I'm dealing with this time!
I'm starting to hit that time where I can't wait for baby, but oh my gosh am I getting terrified of labor. The tailbone breaking again, the contractions and no meds, wondering how to get through it again...praying that pushing doesn't take 3 hours again, regretting not having exercised all pregnancy and yet still having a hard time motivating myself beyond daily walks, panicking about having to leave Katie for who knows how long....yep, it's getting to be third trimester, all right! And it's happening SO fast!
No wonder I've been nesting like crazy lately. My body knows what's going on better than I do, and it's panicking faster than my brain can keep up! I'm going to go grab the rest of the stuff I need tonight to finish packing my bag, and then get started on the rest of the family's bags. I'm glad I already got my carseat, and I'm almost done with clothing now. I started on my diaper stash and plan to add to it tonight. Right now baby is putting so much pressure on my body that it's hard to walk, but as soon as that gets a bit better I'm going to attack the nursery. The five sleepers I have coming that should help me finish up what I need will arrive tomorrow.
I also finally just ordered my first Hypnobirthing book. The book had a few hundred more reviews than the cds did and the cds were 4 times as much, so I thought I'd start with the book and see how I liked their ideas before investing, but I need to start it soon as I know the recommendations are to start it in second tri! The book will be here in two days, hoping that I can get a lot out of it, or at least like it enough to get the cds and see how they work. The problem with the cds is last time with Katie, I wanted NO noise in the room. I hated the idea of music or anything, so I'm not sure if the cds will work as much as memorizing the methods.
The pressure "down there" is getting worse and worse. Baby is really hanging low, and he's so active that sometimes it's almost scary! It feels like he's busting out of my skin, and I have no idea how my insides aren't completely bruised because he's that strong. I have no idea how it is that when babies come out, they seem so fragile and tiny, but when they're inside, they seem so strong and invincible! Even with how constantly active Katie was, I don't remember her being this strong this soon. Makes me wonder how big of a baby I'm dealing with this time!
I'm starting to hit that time where I can't wait for baby, but oh my gosh am I getting terrified of labor. The tailbone breaking again, the contractions and no meds, wondering how to get through it again...praying that pushing doesn't take 3 hours again, regretting not having exercised all pregnancy and yet still having a hard time motivating myself beyond daily walks, panicking about having to leave Katie for who knows how long....yep, it's getting to be third trimester, all right! And it's happening SO fast!
Sunday, September 1, 2013
25.5 weeks
I started to sing to the baby.
I felt broken yesterday, but in the opposite of usual. I was overly energetic. Hmm, maybe energetic isn't right. Restless? That's probably better. Our town had a Hamburger Festival and we went FOUR times. We were there for about eight hours all together. No, it isn't the most amazing festival ever that you just have to spend all day there, but I kept going. I kept dragging Bill and Katie back out to do more because I didn't want to sit. Alright, the fact that there were Cheese Fries was also a driving factor at times! Even after those four times, I still wanted to go out, this time just for a walk or to go to the park...anything to keep going. I have no idea what was wrong with me. My feet ached and I knew I was going to regret it all later, but sitting felt like my skin was crawling. It was like I couldn't bare to sit.
Today is another story. Today DOES hurt. My legs are locked up, my back hurts, my chest is tight. I woke up in pain and at 11 PM, I'm still in pain. And sleepiness galore! I passed out twice today. I kept getting overwhelmingly sleepy, so I would keep Katie with Bill and I'd go nap for a while. I'm still sore!
I feel broken in other ways too. As in, I have baby fever. Which should be obvious, most pregnant women have baby fever, eagerly getting ready for their babies. I'm getting everything ready, super excited about this little boy...but I'm having baby fever over the next baby too! I keep thinking of what the next one will be, or what I even hope it'll be (two little boys in a row would be adorable, and I have my perfect boy name picked out already that I've wanted to use since I was a teenager. But I'd also love to have another little princess and get my girly on again, and have another girl as close in age to Katie as possible.) I keep thinking of what the girl name would be - as now I'm reconsidering the names. I have six names I really like for a girl (though Bill is iffy on one, another I haven't told him about but he probably won't like it, another he hates, and the other two he agreed on but now I"m not sure!) And then the theme! I'm pretty sure I know which princess I want for a girl, but still debating. For a boy, I'm almost positive what I want the next one to be.
BUT, the bottom line here is what the heck am I thinking about the NEXT baby for? Now I can't even get through a pregnancy without thinking of the next? My hormones must be going nuts. As if I didn't have enough to prepare for with this Christmas miracle! Calm down, ovary - let's do this one at a time!
I think the baby flipped in the last few days. I went from getting my cervix tap danced on every hour to now not being able to breathe. I get higher movements now, and no cervix dancing (YAY!). Not that it really matters yet, even though most babies start to turn between this week and next week, there's still plenty of time for him to be a little trouble maker and flip back to cause problems. But, I'm trying to be optimistic!
It was around this time in my pregnancy with Katie that I started to sing to her every night. When she was a baby, she was easily soothed by those songs that I had sung every night. In fact, last night there was a lightening storm and she was overly tired but couldn't fall asleep. She didn't want to cuddle, she didn't want to lay down, and she was crying. I asked her if she wanted me to hold her and sing to her, and she said yes and hurried up. I haven't sung to her in a while, but she curled up in my arms and I sang Baby Mine to her. By the third time I sang it, she was fast asleep.
Today I started singing Puff the Magic Dragon (or rather, trying to. It ALWAYS makes me cry in pregnancy. And now the line that goes "a dragon lives forever, but not so little boys. Painted wings and magic rings make way for other toys" makes me tear up more. I'm not ready to think that little boys grow up and leave, which is how the song ends - Jackie Paper stops visiting Puff because he grows up and loses his imagination. Anyway though, I started singing it, and as soon as I did, Katie immediately stopped what she was doing, ran over and started to cuddle and kiss me. I think she must remember that one too. Normally when I sing other kinds of songs, she doesn't even pay attention. It's adorable - last night when she fell asleep in my arms just from me singing had me having major flash backs to when she was an infant and I'd be up walking her in the nursery, singing the same two songs over and over and over until she calmed down and fell asleep.
I felt broken yesterday, but in the opposite of usual. I was overly energetic. Hmm, maybe energetic isn't right. Restless? That's probably better. Our town had a Hamburger Festival and we went FOUR times. We were there for about eight hours all together. No, it isn't the most amazing festival ever that you just have to spend all day there, but I kept going. I kept dragging Bill and Katie back out to do more because I didn't want to sit. Alright, the fact that there were Cheese Fries was also a driving factor at times! Even after those four times, I still wanted to go out, this time just for a walk or to go to the park...anything to keep going. I have no idea what was wrong with me. My feet ached and I knew I was going to regret it all later, but sitting felt like my skin was crawling. It was like I couldn't bare to sit.
Today is another story. Today DOES hurt. My legs are locked up, my back hurts, my chest is tight. I woke up in pain and at 11 PM, I'm still in pain. And sleepiness galore! I passed out twice today. I kept getting overwhelmingly sleepy, so I would keep Katie with Bill and I'd go nap for a while. I'm still sore!
I feel broken in other ways too. As in, I have baby fever. Which should be obvious, most pregnant women have baby fever, eagerly getting ready for their babies. I'm getting everything ready, super excited about this little boy...but I'm having baby fever over the next baby too! I keep thinking of what the next one will be, or what I even hope it'll be (two little boys in a row would be adorable, and I have my perfect boy name picked out already that I've wanted to use since I was a teenager. But I'd also love to have another little princess and get my girly on again, and have another girl as close in age to Katie as possible.) I keep thinking of what the girl name would be - as now I'm reconsidering the names. I have six names I really like for a girl (though Bill is iffy on one, another I haven't told him about but he probably won't like it, another he hates, and the other two he agreed on but now I"m not sure!) And then the theme! I'm pretty sure I know which princess I want for a girl, but still debating. For a boy, I'm almost positive what I want the next one to be.
BUT, the bottom line here is what the heck am I thinking about the NEXT baby for? Now I can't even get through a pregnancy without thinking of the next? My hormones must be going nuts. As if I didn't have enough to prepare for with this Christmas miracle! Calm down, ovary - let's do this one at a time!
I think the baby flipped in the last few days. I went from getting my cervix tap danced on every hour to now not being able to breathe. I get higher movements now, and no cervix dancing (YAY!). Not that it really matters yet, even though most babies start to turn between this week and next week, there's still plenty of time for him to be a little trouble maker and flip back to cause problems. But, I'm trying to be optimistic!
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