I feel like I'm in denial and my head is spinning! It's TWO days until we find out who this baby is, and it's actually harder to be excited now than it was before. It just feels like it's never going to get here, and now that it's soon, it feels like it's still not for weeks yet. At the same time, it's starting to really open my eyes and say hey, this is a BABY. Not an idea, not a dream, not a hope, but a kicking, gender decided BABY that's going to be coming into our home this Christmas. Even though this baby is kicking in there and becoming such a presence, even though I talk about this baby and am excited about the baby, it's sometimes really hard to realize that it's actually happening. I think it's y 8-9a lot like the gender scan - I've been waiting for so long, it feels like I've been pregnant already for 9 months and I still have 5 to go, that it feels like it's almost a little fantasy I've built in my head instead of reality. I feel like this gender scan will really shake me out of this dreamland and help me realize this is happening. Next week will be full of washing clothing and putting them in the dresser, buying the car seat, and starting to shop more.
Back to this week...I'm EXHAUSTED. I don't know if it's the constant go go go of making this party come together or if it's pregnancy really dragging me down, but I am so, so tired. Taking a nap during the day actually makes the rest of the day impossible because I get more tired, but if I don't take a nap, I'm almost falling asleep by 8-9.
Baby is super active at night. It's fun to end each day with baby squiggling around as I close my eyes.
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