My hormones are going insane lately, and I have no idea why. My whole body is a bit of a mystery to me lately! I'm hoping it doesn't mean that I'm getting my cycles back soon, I'd like to hold them off for 8 more months at least!

This week, for some odd reason, I seem to have baby fever. Which is really strange, as last week the thought of being pregnant was enough to send me into a panic attack. Even now, the idea of Will not being my littlest baby is enough to make me want to cry. I couldn't imagine the stress that would come with getting pregnant right now - I don't know where I want to go for prenatal care yet, the middle name for our next boy is the most difficult thing to figure out in the history of our entire marriage, my body is finally coming back to normal, and I am NO WHERE near ready to get morning sickness or give birth again. I still haven't gotten over the trauma of Will's fast and extremely painful birth.

With that said, there have been a few women on my baby board who popped up pregnant again, and I'll go "awww!" Or I'll see a newborn and think it's been years since Will was that small. Talking about those first kicks you feel in pregnancy will give me that little wishy feeling. I don't know what my hormones are trying to do to me. No thought in my head says "I want a baby." Nothing. I have plenty on my plate right now, and I still want to have ONE year of my marriage that isn't spent pregnant.

Maybe it's because Will doesn't seem like a baby anymore. Everyone tells me he's the size of a 9 -12 month old, and he does remind me much more of a 6+ month old than a newly turned 4 month old. He's catching up in actions as well. He's already able to move in ways that Katie didn't even try to do for months yet. He tries to crawl with his legs, he just can't figure out his arms yet. If he doesn't want to sit in the swing and he isn't strapped in (I did this once when I was just trying to get some pictures of him) he knows how to get himself out of the swing very efficiently. Not many pictures were taken at all, he was so quick! He loves to hold conversations. If you talk to him, he'll talk right back in full on babble. He'll go on for minutes, taking turns chatting. He's definitely going to be an early talker - and how could he not? Not only does he listen to Katie talking all day long, but everyone talks to him and he soaks it up. Nothing delights him more than someone giving him all their attention and talking with him. He's very social.