Someone on my baby board asked what everyone's baby names mean. I already knew William meant Guardian and Protector, but it had only just occurred to me that I had never looked up what Lee means.
Lee means Lion.
It just feels like more of a connection to Elizabeth. She was our little lion cub. Through my whole pregnancy with her, I called her my little cubby. Her symbol was a lion, and the stuffed animal that I had bought her (and Katie picked out) was a little lion. That little lion was what we cuddled and slept with after my miscarriage to help have SOMETHING to hold. She was our lion. And now a little piece of her is tucked into our little boy's name. How very meaningful, for our child who wouldn't be here without Elizabeth.
Lee means Healer.
How poetic is that? Will is our rainbow. Before him, I think my blog made it very evident that I felt very empty and hopeless. I was shattered, and while I was trying to cope, I didn't know how to heal. How do you move on when such a big piece of your heart is missing? How do you stop thinking of "what should have been?" As much as I tried and struggled, I couldn't put myself back together. And then those two lines appeared and that nurse told me that I was pregnant. While I will never "move on" from losing Elizabeth, Will helped me to slowly piece back my heart and to learn how to step back into the light. He was the glue to my sanity. He was my rainbow in my stormy skies. Will brought me out of my never ending, overwhelming, all consuming pain. He's not even born yet, but he has done so much for me already. I know God sent me this baby to heal me, and heal, as much as ever could be possible, I have.
I love that while this name is a family name, it's something that fits so perfectly for this unique baby and this situation. I love that we hadn't planned it, but yet another tie shows itself. It seems like this baby and Elizabeth are so entwined, it's like they were twins who were meant to inhabit the same space at the same time. Every few weeks, while going about this pregnancy and not thinking about anything in particular, something else occurs to me and seems like it's a little message from Elizabeth, telling me she's watching over us and her beloved little brother. So many times she seems to make her presence known through this pregnancy.
Katie is my Pure Beauty, Elizabeth is God's Daughter and God's Promise, and Will is our little Guardian, our fierce little fiery lion, and My Healer.
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